a lot of things are uncertain right now. and i've got lots of work lined up for the next two months. but somehow, i'm feeling pretty good about it because i think i've finally come to terms with the fact that i really can't be in control as much as i'd like to. this helps in managing my own expectations. and hey, if you don't expect much... well, everything else that's good, becomes a bonus (or at least that's what i'm trying to convince myself of). and if things don't work out, well... nothing much was expected anyway, no?

pretty cynical, i know. but it keeps me sane. somewhat anyway.

people who are perpetually optimistic never cease to amaze me. i can't help but admire them, because it opens up your life to a lot more possibilities. you are your own limits after all.

sometimes, they annoy me though. partly because of the high correlation between optimistic folk and over-chirpy ones but also because i envy their ability to continue pushing on in light of repetitive disappointments.