at what cost?

Thursday, May 20, 2010

mood: morose
listening to: standing still - jewel

ugly is the sight, in such a beautiful country,
at what cost is the fight, before it becomes unworthy?

posted @ 01:55 0 comments

a splash of cold water.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

mood: disappointed
listening to: -

"self-centered".

it pains me but i can't deny it. funny how you try so hard not to be something, but end up being exactly what it is, no?

what happened to you along the way? people used to describe you as too giving of yourself and now it's turned out the opposite.

posted @ 02:27 2 comments

the tick and tock, it never stops.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

mood: much better than yesterday
listening to: east of the sun - diana krall

it just occurred to me that my blog is 4 years old! that also means.....i'm four years older! a natural conclusion would then be that i'm wiser! right? right??? =D

it was pointed out to me before that my posts tend to be somewhat cryptic. yeah well, i'll have to agree, seeing that when reading some of my old jottings, even I can't remember what i was talking about...*eep

that's not a bad thing, especially when the ones i can't seem to recall tend to be the more depressing ones. ah yess...nothing like having to read between the lines to put the melo in the drama. =)

anyway. believe it or not, i was at a loss for words yesterday. me!!! when has THAT ever happened?? and i wasn't even THAT upset to the point of being speechless. the word i was looking for completely eluded me and for quite a few moments, i was actually struck with the terrible fear that my vocabulary was deteriorating (!) what horror...

the word that eluded me was this: patronise.

and what i had meant to write was this:

"don't you just hate people who patronise you with their feigned innocence, when you both know that they are well aware that their own manipulative actions have been guided by their own underlying, hidden intentions. fools who take you for a fool. what fools. bah. dont' be a fool."

okay, i think i've overcompensated enough for my economical post yesterday =)

as you can tell, i like to have my say and say it.

and there ya have it, i've said it.

toodles!

posted @ 01:08 1 comments

who are you trying to kid, kiddo?

Sunday, May 09, 2010

mood: annoyed
listening to: -

argh!.

posted @ 21:59 0 comments

in the reruns of my mind...

Friday, May 07, 2010

mood: tired
listening to: people get ready - crystal bowersox

i've been reminiscing a lot of late. i recall you with a fondness in my heart, a mild ache for what could have been, some consolation in knowing that it never would have anyway, and still the occassional curiousity if you wonder the same.

oh well.

posted @ 01:28 1 comments