i've been in search of answers for my very, very many questions for a long time now. and what i've come to realise is that they appear in places you least expect to find them - and also that they do not appear all at once, but in fragments, big and small, over an extended period of time.

i don't know if i'm happy to say that i seem to have pieced most of the answer to one particular question. i fear that when i see the whole, it will be one that i will not like. and that's the trouble, isn't it? save for some powers of denial of the super-human kind, you really can't "give" that answer that you don't like, back, and only keep the ones you like, now can you?

but to this, you say,"so what?" an answer is an answer. if you went in search of it, what matters is that you found it. right? and who in this world, gets what they want, all of the time anyway?

life's tough, kid. deal with it.